Lines and Times

The things I never told you

Fairytale visions I couldn't live up to

But I thought if I wait, it'll all come true

Now I'm a broken mess

With lines and times I keep trying to undress

But if I'm new, I'll forget the rest

I'm puking visions of my past

Dry heaving memories that are only shadows cast

Too sick to realize what did and did not last

And I can't sleep at night

The medication helps, but the feeling isn't right

If I don't, I have nightmares I'm too paranoid to fight

Now everybody knows my cause

I thought that if I told them I'd eliminate some flaws

Turns out all I did was shine a light on things I saw

Or didn't see

Either way, the vision sticks with me

And I miss who I used to be

But the fairytale is no longer my reality