trash

the thought of you 

made my stomach turn today

not like "im so sick"

but more like "what did i throw away"

and i'm digging through my mental trash..

knowing there's a reason this shouldn't be rehashed...

hoping its the season change thats bringing back my past....

and sure enough

on the bottom of the pile...

a years worth of denial

i guess thats the thing about trash.

if you never empty it, it just keeps coming back