face

sometimes, i think if I can make everyone else more aware,

then one day, I just won't care,

and all of these memories will be replaced

with more important reasons to stay in this race

then the ones I have now.

Because while it's gotten better, 

it's still not who I am somehow.

And the fact that he's never seen my face

before I cried

makes me feel pathetic, 

because he'll only see how hard I've tried

to keep the face

the one that I had to put on in the old one's place

the one that's just a waste. 

I wish he could see me in my old space. with my old face.